flashbacks & flashforwards.You know what I really am? Selfish. Because I make bad choices that hurt you. Yes, I would rather die than be human. I would rather die right now than spend a handful of years with you, only to lose you when I’m too old and sick and miserable and you’re still you. I would rather die right now than spend my last final years remembering how good I had it and how happy I was because that’s who I am, Elena, and I’m not going to change. And there’s no apology in the world that encompasses all the reasons that I’m wrong for you.”